I have expanded my music list and knowledge from the menz. I thought you might enjoy seeing some of these. I'm not going to go in chronological order because I don't feel like it:
"Creep" by Scott Bradlee's Postmodern Jukebox, Hailee Reinhart
GQ sang Creep to me. His version was by Brian Justin Crum, who is amazing. He sang this to me, the whole song, in bed, in my ear so sweetly. I sent him my version I listened to, this one, and it became his favorite. We played this song a million times. This song places me right back there in his arms. Ouch. Also, Creep? Not a great foreshadowing for a relationship, amiright?
"Just the Way You Are" by Bruno Mars
GQ sent me this four days before he broke up with me, the day after the shit trip back from Springfield. Yeah I don't get it either.
I Found You by Alabama Shakes
The Masseuse sent this to me the first week we were dating. You can see why I fell in love so fast. I was sad, lonely and this gorgeous man who'd given me amazing sex, food and a damn massage sent this fucking wonderful song. I'm only sad I can never have it with another person now. I played this song over and over and over in my kitchen, all alone at the beginning of the pandemic, and just pined. He was a tricky little guy. He sent it, said he thought of me, said not to read too much into the lyrics. Uh huh. "I finally found you," yeah. okay dude.
Castles by Freya Ridings
The Photographer and I talked about this artist. I already loved her thank god, but I do think of him now and again when she comes on. I don't want to hang out with him even though we had the best make-out sesh in a rainstorm I've ever had, on my front porch at night. Wow. It was incredible. If his politics were better and some of his stories didn't sound like he was an asshole and we'd been sexually compatible.... hahahhhaa that's a lot. Never mind.
Something in the Water by Pokey LaFarge
Hoppy and I went to see Pokey on his birthday just because it happened to be on his birthday, for fun. We dressed in 40's clothes. It was fun shopping for our outfits at the thrift store together. He looked adorable in a vest and suit pants. We ended up loving Pokey and seeing him every time he was in town. This song was from Hoppy to me because the subject of the song is crazy like me, but he loved it. Yeah I'm all up in my feels right now because I'm listening to it. I haven't listened to this song since I left him. We'd play the album while cooking. We'd kiss and love on each other. One year we went to St. Louis for New Year's Eve, the best NYE ever in my life to that point. We stayed in a fancy hotel, got dressed up and saw Pokey live, had breakfast at 2 in the morning. Damnit I'm missing him right now. The fuck. Turn off the music. Whew, better. I was getting very sad there. Anyway the next day we lounged in bed with the newspapers and football on tv in that hotel all day. We did have a lot of good things together. I drove him crazy with my analytic shiz and you know... our sex drives were opposite. Kisses Hoppy you are awesome though.
Can I have that fun stuff plus understanding plus sex plus adventure someday? Plus no patriarchy stuff? And acceptance of the tattooed crazy hair lady I'm going to be in three years? Plus an outdoorsman, great dad/future grandfather maybe, driven to follow a dream... okay... back to the playlist.
Ball and Biscuit - The White Stripes
Zen Man loved Jack White. I think he sent me this song to listen to because I liked Jack too. I love the song and it doesn't bother me at all to listen to it because I didn't attach to Zen. I was glad to send him packing. I hope he's okay though. I adore this song.
Come Away With Me - Norah Jones
This came on so often on The Drummer's sexy time playlist. I don't know that he even liked it, nor was it our song. I loved this song before him.
Lady Like by Ingrid Andress
I sent this song to The DJ and he questioned me on it. I said I identified with it. Now not all of it. I do drink tequila straight, kiss on the first date and didn't actually comb my hair this week. I also will do things for attention. I definitely wear dresses but don't smoke. Anyway I don't think he saw it which is fine. I did. Or I was trying to move into it.
Black Lung by The Dead South
This is the Liberal Marine through and through. I'd never have found it but he sent it to me. I always think of him when it plays. Damn it if he hadn't caught feelings I'd love to see him more. I liked that guy.
truth hurts by lizzo
Hahahahaaahahah I sang this to the Cranky Narcissist all summer. I didn't know it was prophetic. Really. I wasn't just messing with him. "Why men great till they gotta be great?" Yup. This cracks me up every time. He sang some cheesy-ass song to me. I deleted it off my list and can't remember it now. I didn't like it anyway.
Consider Me- Allen Stone
So I want someday to have this song with someone who will be a forever person. I want to slow dance with them by the campfire on mountains, in the kitchen while making dinner, under the stars in our backyard. Twould be so awesome if they sent it to me early in our relationship without knowing I love it when they were full on wooing me.
I wrote this list before meeting Spirit, who is friends with Allen Stone. Allen's Brown-Eyed Girl will forever remind me of Spirit as it played the first night we met, in hotel room right before we got busy.
Last on this list is good ol' Hillbilly, to whom I was married for 28 years. When I was in high school the song, "In the Heat of the Moment" by Asia was popular. We claimed it as our song. Yes. Unironically. And damnit it was the heat of the moment but I got married to him a year later like a dumbhead.